I'll make you care that I am running here without you

Rena; Thanks a lot babe. ;D Love you la.
NatLim; Cause something happened. Thanks for comforting Nat, love you. :)
Prunella; We should talk soon ok babe? I love you so!
Wenlin; Haha thanks a lot for thgat girll (:
Akiko; Haha silly. Thanks for your concern yeh. :D
Lii; Hellooooo back to you :)
Jiayi; Thanks a lot yeh. :)
Nique; Stitches thing is for me what. I'm damn sad now & I'm on the phone with you & you're like shouting @ me. NIQUE HOW NIQUE :(

I'm almost done with my art :D Say yay! I'm damn lazy to continue now. Shall ask mummy to help me later ;D

I feel like telling a story in here, but my vocabulary is very limited. I feel like having a private blog so I can blah all I want in there. I'm crying every now & then whenever I think of her & her, think of us & the past. Everything. I'm fuck painful now & no one knows. I'm crying still, for the same reason, the same thing.


Is she the reason you don't call
like you use to
Fall thru my hood like you use to
Put it on me hard like you use to do

I feel in my mind what's goin' on but my heart won't let me go until I know

Is she the reason that my calls
Couldn't reach ya
the deepest of my love
Couldn't please ya or bring it to me home
Like you use to do
Seeing her fallin 'for your charm got me feelin' like I wasn't good enough
- Destiny's Child's Is She The Reason?

I hope she isn't but in my heart, I know she is. And that's probably the reason to all my questions.

We haven't ended things. We're still considered together but the relationship is on hold. I hope you know somebody loves you. You're up in my head since Wednesday. You're all that I can think of. I'm kept thinking of you, holding on to someone else's hand instead of mine. You're working tonight & I can't end your day like how I used to anymore. :( My heart aches so bad. We're coming 6th, we were so excited about it. Do you remember? And your affection for her shaken this love. I don't blame you for all that had happened. I guess I weren't good enough for you, that's why your love faded somehow. I just want you to know that I'm here waiting, still until you've got the answer on hand. I'll still be loving you, regardless of what your decision might be. And now that you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose, I hope you choose the one that means the most to you. Whatever it might be, I'm here. Still here, forever more. You're still gonna be the one that I'd be thinking of all day, all night. You're still gonna be the one I love so much. Things changed, people changed. So I don't blame you or whatever. I won't turn this love into hatred. I hope you'd come to me soon, with something I wanna hear.

I love you.

It's not how long or short that matters. It's the once alive tinge of sweetness that lingers, embrace those fond memories and remember how happy we used to be. Thank you for what you have given me. Thank you for everything :)

The fond memories we once had, I'd hold dear to me forever, in this life.

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Nique: u only got one person you wan
Nique: nth else alr
Me: If it was a week back & you say that, I would smile.
Nique: haha
Nique: its the same line
Nique: same meaning
Nique: still true
Nique: but holds different point of view alr
Me: I miss her.

Sigh. I'm so touched by my lovely friends that I cried. Dale saw my blog & came to comfort me. Now she's off to cook. Haha don't burn the kitchen Dale! Adel sent me a heart in MSN & smile. She comforted me & all :) She said even if she left, I've got all of them. Aw, that made me tear. Rena kept reminding me about certain things like someone else would mend this heart. Moronic Nique Chua kept scolding me -.- For my good. Val screamed at me in the email, asking me to wake up & that she was very very concerned. Zel, being the exceptional one, kept asking what happened to us & the phone calls, saying that she misses her. I love y'all so much! Thanks a lot sweeties.

Someday, I'm gonna tell you I'm doing just fine, getting along very well without you in life. Time made me stronger & you're no longer the one up in my mind. And that is so not true. Aiya whatever. I'm crying all day, all night long. Wtf.

He asked me not to be sad & I said how not to. He replied, must. He cares, I'm glad. And I saw someone who resembles him yesterday @ Crystal Jade. I miss him though I saw him few days ago. Well, he makes me happy somehow. And I guess he helped me in a lot. He can be irritating sometimes but really nice & cute! And he never fail made me smile. That's what I like about him. ;)

I heard things that I don't wanna hear.
Fuck this shit.




Those promises out of your mouth are some useless piece of shit that you don't mean.
<3.